I worry too much

That week flew by faster then I thought it would. Last night we bathed the boys by heating water on the stove and pouring it in a Rubbermaid tub to help conserve water for he rest of the week. Then we heated more water so we could do a semi -sponge bath after the kids were finished. I have felt sort of anxious about bathing the kids all week. I knew it was something I wanted to try along with this "survival week", but it felt very daunting. Some how the idea of heating enough water to try and bath a person seemed impossible. Now I look back at it and wonder "What in the world was I so worried about?"

We had the Missionaries over yesterday with an investigator named Lisa. She loves talking to the missionaries because it helps her to ponder more deeply what she believes. We watched The Restoration with her and talked a lot about prayer and scripture study together. I was able to bear my testimony of the power of prayer and talked about sometimes the answers to those prayers will come later than we expect because Heavenly Father wants us to have a certain opportunity or experience that will make the answer to that prayer meaningful enough that we will never forget it. And in the future when we need to draw on the answers to those prayers we will remember those experiences rather than a simple "yes" or "no." I realized that for almost a year I had been praying for missionary opportunities, but had always felt apprehensive about bearing my testimony to others. I worried that since I had never been a "called missionary" I would mess it up. Lisa said the prayer after our meeting and said that she felt we had been led into her life at this time and said how grateful to Heavenly Father she was that we had been sent to her. I look back now and wonder "What in the world was I so worried about?"

How many other things in life do I anxiously stand at the sidelines waiting and staring at what I think will be an impossible race to finish only to find out I have been running in this race my entire life and have jumped over thousands of hurdles much bigger than the ones that stand before me and look so ominous. So this next week as we go without electricity (for what may seem like a lifetime) I know I will look back and say. "What in the world was I so worried about?"